Sem 2 and what not

So if you didn’t know yet (although I wouldn’t blame you as I never really publicly announced my enrollment bc I didn’t want to come across as arrogant bc I’m only doing this programme bc of the JPA bursary wow that’s a lot of bc) , I’m currently feeling my way through Sem 2 of the IBDP at TCSH.

There, I said it. Lol.

Why I said ‘feeling my way’ is bc I’ve come up with sort of a metaphor on how progressing into Sem 2 is. Sem 1 is like walking into a brightly-lit room for the first time. Everything you see is new and fresh and exciting and it’s easy to move around (brightly-lit) bc there’re teachers and seniors to show you the way. And there’s nothing hidden, everything’s clear and direct, from lessons to new friendships.

And then Sem 2 starts and it’s like someone just flicked the light switch off. Suddenly, it’s pitch black as acronyms and terms (IAs,EEs, datelines, research question,manage your time) increasingly make their way into your hearing range. But even as you hear more of them, you still have no idea what to do with/about them and at this time, your eyes haven’t adjusted to the lack of light in the room so you’re taking baby steps with your hands outstretched.

As time passes and these acronyms and terms become almost like a dark cloud/voice that looms over your head at all times and will only disappear if you complete them, which if you’re efficient will be at the end of this year, everything that you do that does not contribute to the progress of these tasks will land you in guilt. And at this point you sort of have an idea of what you have to do to get the job done and your eyes have adjusted to the darkness so now you’re not so much in the dark anymore (aye) but none of it is clear yet.

And that’s all I have bc that’s my current situation. What a metaphor huh

Tbh this post was supposed to be about memories I can/want to rmb from high school that ended more than a year ago, if I can even rmb any. And then after I’m done with that, more posts on memories I want to rmb from college. “Whaaaaat it’s only Sem 2” you might say but that was me in Sem 1 and look how fast we got to Sem 2. With all the work rushing in like tidal waves, I bet it’ll be graduation before we even have the time to think about spending enough time tgt before parting ways.

Tho will it ever be enough

Looks like I’ll do the memories thing next time.

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Before: To IB or not to IB

I think there needs to be a certain amount of inclination towards whatever you want to do- what degree to pursue, what job to land, what life to lead, to actually do it and be a rockstar at it.

And that’s why I can’t decide what I want to do. I have an inclination towards many things. I incline in every direction. ┬áBut that’s not the problem. It might even be an advantage because that means I have more options.

The problem is that I don’t know how much I incline in any of the directions.

I don’t know if there’s a way to find out. I’m not talking exact percentages on a bar graph or a pie chart, but maybe just feeling a little more excited when I think about what I’ll spend my life doing in comparison to all the things other people are doing. Does that make sense?

Hence one of the reasons I have decided to take the road less traveled instead of the well-beaten path. I have chosen to face the relentless stream of concerned questions from confused relatives and friends regarding my choice of education when in its place could’ve been nods of comprehension and approval of what I’m doing with my life.

IB has beaten A-levels and won over my heart. In no time, it’ll take over my mind,body,spirit and life but that’s for another story.

Hopefully,through IB, I will discover my biggest inclination and then really have a shot at being a rockstar at whatever it is I choose to do.